Did Tonto Really Say Chemo-sabe?

Today kicks off what will be the start of my second full week of therapy, starting with my being dropped kicked through the goal posts of a 5 hour chemo session for my second legal lesson in how one can live better through chemistry. Then, if at all possible and if time allows, it’s down to the radiation lab to be irradiated like a newly picked bunch ‘o’ grapes from Mexico.
When I have time to reflect that my melanoma growth if being battled out by some evilly radioactive particles and a lethal chemical compound that require hazmat suits to be administered, it appears that if they vanquish the victim (the tumor) into remission, the two warriors at the forefront of the battle cease to exist, they both lose. And these lethal doses of chemo and radiation not only lose, they lose if the tumor wins or loses. Inorganic sacrifices are they, and in my intellectual arrogance I can assume they’re work is done completely devoid of any organic consent and their part. But I’m starting to feel more like part of the weave in the fabric of life of this universe I find myself in, and not like some loose end or external participant sitting in a comfortable seat watching the show of life as I could join in and drop out of at whim. I’m going to look at therapies as elements of the universe conspiring to act as a consortium towards my greater well being. Those elements may be as disparate as Eastern medicine, the ancient knowledge of Native American herbalists and standard western medicine, but where joined together in the common cause.
I also want to add that none of this activity is being done in a state of highly agitated panic. It is a conscience effort on my part to pull together what I was not will to really heretofore to expend the effort at, and that was live the live that gives me a countless number of paths to my next truth, revelation of direction.
I’ll post again shortly, post lethal cocktail time that is when some lucidity may have returned so I can complete a thought, and possibly compose complete sentences.
Off again into the future…